I am done trying.

Well. Exactly. This is the feeling that I've feel last 2012. And it comes back. Haunting me. Please I wanna get rid of this jhdslcdkvbjdfmlsfklf feelings. I don't know whether it can be catogerised as cheating cuz i don't have any serious relationship tbh. But could u please stop saying that

"I don't wanna lose you and seeing u with anybody else"

and just say.....

 "Please leave me"

I guess it is too normal if a girl getting jiggy and max jealousy mode if she knows that her crush texting with his own best friend which is a girl too. "Sekurang-kurangnya __________ jujur." HA HA HA HA HA  that is so nice of you being honest. 

Gila apa kalau lelaki kite suka tibe tibe ignoring kite sehabis baik sopan santun ikhlas amanah yang mungkin and at the same time, reveal his good side by saying that I'M JUST TEXTING WITH MY FRIEND, ____________ tapi takde la sampai bla bla bla...... 

P/s: 

Its funny how you walked into my life was just how easily you walked out my life. 

Thanks a lot for that. 

Don't Compare Your Life With Others

It is too normal when people being jealous over his/her friends superior. I'm gonna go like, "Bestnya kau dah masuk U semua, I wish I got the chance too", Monolog: "Why why why senang senang je kau dapat masuk u eh, aku ni nak jugak oh", "Kau pandai, aku ni apa je la nak dibandingkan dengan kau" *koyak kertas*. It is a really true story. I could feel the pain inside this small heart when my mama did compare me with her friends sons/daughters. And i don't like it. I am being me. I am not as good as her. I am stupid/dumb. I am not a good daughter at all like her. Those negatives thoughts were playing on my mind.

Okay, lets stop this. Things not gonna change. I am the one who need to change to a better person after all. 

So, i am in the jungle of the fish struggling to choose a good course and universities. I am wondering whether it is better to choose DIPLOMA or ASASI or MATRIKULASI.

Dentistry is my heart and soul. And I'm too confuse again about choosing between dentistry and Medic. But this heart are DEFINITELY IN LOVE WITH DENTISTRY. But my mind said, "Mira seronok ke kau nak belajar pasal gigi manusia ni selama 3-4 tahun? Think it wisely". As a result, look what i've done with the upu application form. 

Jyeah, it is clean. I mean TOO CLEAN. Let left it out for about another few days until i made up my decision.

It is really confusing.. 

Till then, XOXO Miraaaaaaa