Hati wanitaku berkata

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. Jiwang habis kan title tu. Hahahaha semua perasaan//hati//feeling//cinta//sedih//gembira//emosi lain hati ku ini akan terungkai melalui video ini. Selamat menjamu mata dengan keindahan perasaan wanita dan juga lelaki hehe n.n

Kak Heliza cantik sangat. Mana tak cair hati lelaki. Hahaha. If only i could.....efdhfjefmlexvzz lupakan. Brother dua orang tu pun sebenarnya menunjukkan apa yang lelaki rasa//fikir//keinginan//kemahuan//dll. Cuba la untuk mengenal lelaki ((walaupun kite tak berapa nak boleh)) hahaha. Brother sorang tu siap ada tanda kat dahi. Salute laaaa. Faham faham la maksudnya kan. Alhamdulillah masih ada lagi lelaki seperti ini. 

Matlamat kita ((wanita)): 

• Mencari yang handsome dan soleh. Tapi dekat mana nak cari? Hahahaha. *This is how i feel*
• Nak cari orang baik kene la cari kat tempat dan persekitaran yang baik. Baru la peluang nak jumpa lelaki idaman tu lebih cerah hahaha.
• Lelaki yang tinggi, tegap, berpersonaliti kemas, bersih dan wangi *opss my heart shaking lol*

Time lagu sleeq keluar terus rasa nak menari dan menyanyi *uuu yaayaa uuu yaaaa eh* haha. 

Untuk yang lebih lanjut, search for the videos on youtube. Dah banyak episode yang ada. Believes me. It suits your heart and soul. Open new tab faster faster and faster people.

Assalmualaikum.

Road Trip to Tun Syed 2011//2012

Assalamualaikum. So today i decided to upload all of the pictures that i STILL had. It may looks like a little bit cheesy or what but i don't wanna print the photos cuz i know that i'll lose it. Pity me.

Some people need time to get along with the new environment  So do me. Being transferred to SMS Tun Syed Syeh Shahabudin isn't what i plan about. There were too many ups and downs that I've faced there. Too many laugh, too many tears, too many giggles, too many thoughts and too many over-thinking probably. Public phone aspuri menjadi saksinya ha ha ha lawak sangat.

I still remember the first day i stepped into soksek. It was on 28th of February 2011 and Mastika was the one who's guiding me. It was weird when you can see the seniorzz were eyes you; i mean 'the new students' not me lol, from their classes and its too zdvshdbjfue. Joining Nilam sport's team ((Oh hebat, oh oh hebat hebat lol)) and being "stored" in Dorm 3C1 and 2D4. 3C1'11 and 2D4'12 were the dorms where it's too full with memory and happiness with students from all over Malaysia were kept as one. Different than other dorms that were mixing up //2011// with the old and new students which give us a big advantage to get along and knowing each other well hehehe.

Some of the memories below were the time when we're having this International Programme with Thailand's student from Dechapattayanayukul school if i was not mistaken ((sorry if the spelling is incorrect)) of course in Thailand wait i dont have the pictures of us with the Thailands. Sigh.

/aiman ad/ the junior//

Gambar ni je yang ada harap maklum hehe. Semua gambar dalam bas pulak. Hahaha.

And...... this are maaa classmateeesss yuhuuuu. 4 Bestari and 5 Bestari we conquer it all!!!!!

syahmi, choin, rezza, omar, fidos, aris, akmal fadzli, fidos, butek, mad go, nani, shadel, fani, milah, leha, auni, ecah, kak bay, cik wan, lyana natasha, aimi, che pah, farah, zee, fatinah, ain and me. 

27 hearts being one. Siap ada gaduh dengan classmates sendiri tapi yang paling best; Dua tahun berturut turut tak pernah tak join Hari Koperasi wuuuu *clap clap* and menang Kelas Tercantik Terceria Terbersih and sorta n.n

OMJ please jangan bash kami k k k but this is what we are actually doing in le class hahaha

Nilam timeeeeeeee!!! and yeayyy!!! we did it. Setelah sekian lama tak menang, akhirnya nilam berjaya jugak jadi JOHANNNNNNN sumpah best gila time menang tu dapat jerit jerit satu rumah gembira gila nak terkench hahaha.

The weirdest 'waves' evaaaa hahaha tu yang menang perbarisan tu yeahh

The most talented//renowned//handsome Physics' teacher in le world. Cikgu Wahidd.
Teringat teknik londeh//tengok bawah//naik rumah hahaha

Nilam the champion of the year 2012 Alhamdulillah yeayy

Twenty years from now, i am gonna look back and remember that you were that person who could turn every frown into a smile in a few simple words; that person who lifted my head when i lose faith in myself ; that person who carried tears on their shoulders after every fights, every break ups, that person who accepted any decision that i made, that person that made biggest different in my life.... my best friends.
Credit to: tumblr

Mimpi Bahaya

Assalamualaikum so this is the second post of the day haha nampak tak tahap kebosanan aku kat situ. I dont think that you guyzz should take a look at this post cuz i'm gonna start posting photos i mean; gambar syok sendiri. So please go awei please.

So last night oh its morning MAYBE, around 2.45 a.m i unaccidently wake up with this very surprised and agitated heart beating; the worst nightmare of my entire life. The dream was too extremely shocking me. It was about my SPM RESULT ---> i did only score 4A, 4B and 2C jhdjsjdnsmdkshf i dont know what happen to me. I feel like crying in le dream and ended up crying in real life too as i opened up my eyes. The tears rolling down on my cheeks. I couldn't imagine if that could really happen.

Due to the unstable emotions, I called my mum but no answer ((she's on her KURSUS)) and thinking of telling Abah bout the dream but he seems to tired n i don't wanna wake him up. So i just keep on spamming the timeline and i'm glad Fatin Husna and Amnani Amir were there helping me to calm myself.

 There are a lot of "what if" on my mind. What if i do score something like that? What if i cant even taking the dentistry course, what if, what if, what if and etc.

Yang paling tak boleh blah tu, dalam mimpi tu slip result dia bukan macam slip result spm yang biasa. Dia slip yang mcm dah kene lipat kecil2 and siap ada orang conteng hahaha. Cikgu yang bagi result pun cikgu SMKSU ((i miss them)). Aku da tengok result//nangis//then bru teringat nak check balik apa yang dapat B and C tu. Dalam mimpi pun dah fikir mcm mana nak ambik course elok kalau result mcm tu hdhfjnnf.

Those jumble of feelings stuck on my chest. Maybe i did......... over-thinking about the result. The consequences of the dream is too BAD booo tp myself. I keep on imagining whether that was a reality or just a fantasy. I'm just hoping to score well and trying hard//praying to be strong on that day to face any possibilities. Amin. Goodluck to the batch 95's all around Malaysia. 

Pura pura sahaja apabila kamu bercinta

Assalamualaikum. 

This is such a good inspirational video for me. 

Dear stress, lets break up

Post di bawah dalam keadaan ngeri sedih kecewa jangan baca ((eventhough I'm the only one yang akan baca post sendiri)) thats pretty good cuz i need privacy and i can have it here.

Assalamualaikum and hye hai hello peace whatsapp manusia in the universe *Ayat nak rojak BM BI habis tu*

Lately i've been struggling with myself over some big things in my life. It was too depressing and i hate when the pimple started to be part of myself due to this problems.

"Amira, your SPM's result is on 20th March, right?" I just want some people to stop the countdown so i can rest in peace everyday oh please friends. Sometimes i did think too much about it. Now... in this current situation, i can only imagine the mistakes that i make in all those papers and its TOO clear on my mind compared to the "Boleh laaa's questions. Boleh la doesnt mean that i can answer it all. Lumrah pelajar Mira. You need to overcome it cuz sooner or later, the day will come and there's nothing you can do to hide the scores ;A:

People can say "Alaaa relax la" but they dont know the suffer i had within myself. I just hope that i could success. Memang la semua orang nak straight A's kan, but i keep on motivates myself to endure the pain IF i didnt get the chances to score well in SPM. Perjalanan masih jauh, banyak lagi perlu ditempuh and the road to be a dentist is not as simple as i think cuz I KNOW I NEED to face many obstacles to be one of them. Pray to Allah supaya segala urusan di dunia dan di akhirat dipermudahkan oleh Nya.

So note of the day to dear myself; 

WHAT EVER YOU DECIDES TO DO, MAKE SURE THAT YOU'LL ALWAYS BE HAPPY AND SMILING

This cheeks going to be bigger than this don't shock dghxgsbxjndjch

Toodles xoxo <3

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh muslimin dan muslimat.

Short update

Few prints:

X : Cakap la bahasa mandarin lagi?

Y: Eh tak tau tak tau dah. Tak tau!

X : Please, sikit pun takpe

Y : Ni hau ma?

X : Oh tu tau. Lagi lagi?

Y: Wo Ai Ni

X : Tak tau apa tu? 

Y: Hahahahahaha ((long laugh)) Takpe la. Takde apa apa la. 

X: *Pretending that idk what is it until the end* Sorry. * giggles*

The conversation ends.

A simple hello

Assalamualaikum to all the readers.

Currently i've been busy with my daily life. Keep on doing the exact same thing every minutes of a day. Maybe that's are the gift for my two years absent. Doing the chores are not something enjoyable cuz it is a process where its repeated in each single day. What a life T^T I'm not saying that the chores are something boring but in certain ways, it is BORING. Ayat putar belit harap maklum.

THIS IS WHAT I'M SAYING

STOP!!!!!

But lets go to the main point. I guess, a few years back, i was posting on something bout the date of PMR's Results. So let me keep on doing the same posting. Yes, maybe in 20 days.... I'll hold my results. Idk whether i will smile, or i will pretending to smile *thats a different thing tbh*. I'm sure that my nerves would spilt, the blood wont run smoothly, and the brain could not interpret the data correctly and thats due to the SPM'S RESULT and its too scary!!! And i will try my best to calm myself and be brave to take my first step back into the one and only SMSTSSS.

Instead of going back to Penang, i might doing this; Perhaps. But this one is too mainstream and too killing me slowly. 

So don't ask anything bout the day or else i will kill you in an extreme way muahahaha *evil laugh*. Have a nice day readers.

Assalamualaikum, goodbye and toodlesss n.n

I am done trying.

Well. Exactly. This is the feeling that I've feel last 2012. And it comes back. Haunting me. Please I wanna get rid of this jhdslcdkvbjdfmlsfklf feelings. I don't know whether it can be catogerised as cheating cuz i don't have any serious relationship tbh. But could u please stop saying that

"I don't wanna lose you and seeing u with anybody else"

and just say.....

 "Please leave me"

I guess it is too normal if a girl getting jiggy and max jealousy mode if she knows that her crush texting with his own best friend which is a girl too. "Sekurang-kurangnya __________ jujur." HA HA HA HA HA  that is so nice of you being honest. 

Gila apa kalau lelaki kite suka tibe tibe ignoring kite sehabis baik sopan santun ikhlas amanah yang mungkin and at the same time, reveal his good side by saying that I'M JUST TEXTING WITH MY FRIEND, ____________ tapi takde la sampai bla bla bla...... 

P/s: 

Its funny how you walked into my life was just how easily you walked out my life. 

Thanks a lot for that. 

Don't Compare Your Life With Others

It is too normal when people being jealous over his/her friends superior. I'm gonna go like, "Bestnya kau dah masuk U semua, I wish I got the chance too", Monolog: "Why why why senang senang je kau dapat masuk u eh, aku ni nak jugak oh", "Kau pandai, aku ni apa je la nak dibandingkan dengan kau" *koyak kertas*. It is a really true story. I could feel the pain inside this small heart when my mama did compare me with her friends sons/daughters. And i don't like it. I am being me. I am not as good as her. I am stupid/dumb. I am not a good daughter at all like her. Those negatives thoughts were playing on my mind.

Okay, lets stop this. Things not gonna change. I am the one who need to change to a better person after all. 

So, i am in the jungle of the fish struggling to choose a good course and universities. I am wondering whether it is better to choose DIPLOMA or ASASI or MATRIKULASI.

Dentistry is my heart and soul. And I'm too confuse again about choosing between dentistry and Medic. But this heart are DEFINITELY IN LOVE WITH DENTISTRY. But my mind said, "Mira seronok ke kau nak belajar pasal gigi manusia ni selama 3-4 tahun? Think it wisely". As a result, look what i've done with the upu application form. 

Jyeah, it is clean. I mean TOO CLEAN. Let left it out for about another few days until i made up my decision.

It is really confusing.. 

Till then, XOXO Miraaaaaaa 

An Alien

Sometimes when my mind is not on the mood to answer any questions, just... Let Anything In My Mind Burst Out.

Don't Judge Me Because I am Quiet

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatuh~
How was your day? Everything is alright? Alhamdulillah. This is the first day of 2013, 1/1/2013. Grant me the good things for this year. Amin.

I am so so so QUIET. Especially when I was in Tun Syed. I could only speak-out-loud with Maryam, Tasya, Nelisa, Amnani, Affani, Shadela, 2D4's and Bestarianss. Those people help me to go through the BAD situation and helping my ups and downs. I was wondering whether this is me? Amira who known as someone yang gila mereng tahap kambing muda dan comel tetibe jadi someone yang "........... KRIK KRIK........" I rarely talk a lot there.

"There comes a point when you have to realize that you'll never be good enough for some people. But that's not your problems"

• Hello, i am annoyed with you too, please. 

Ok, this is what happened to me and Saujanarians this morning. I wake up around 6.30 a.m, perform my Subuh prayer and wash up. Suddenly Abah opened up my door and say

Abah: Yaya, hurry up. Hari ni breakfast dekat Mak Tom (a restaurant)  

Me: Oh, okay okay *nodded* 

Monolog Dalaman (Me): Ya Allah, it is 8 a.m and Abah dah nak breakfat. Ugh malasnyaa nak bangun.

But anyway and anyhow, I still change my clothes and heading to the restaurant with ma familyzz and mok tokss. Aku siap ambik satu pinggan penuh dengan nasi lemak, and a few pieces of potato *dengan penuh rasa bangga dan seronok*. Tengah tengah makan tu, then ........ "DUSH DUSH". I was like, eh barang apa pulak ni jatuh pagi pagi macam ni -.- And the whole family was like: Yaya mengarut gilaaa. Itu bunyi accident la! I unconsciously tetibe tergelak. Hahaha. Both of the car memang hancur and remuk. Pity for them as both of the owner of the car were rushing to the primary school for year one's registration. Mungkin dah takdir diorang macam tu...

Yes, this evening i'm gonna meet my loves. Rindunyaa dekat korang *hugkisshugkiss* Update later. Buhbyebyebyeee. Salam.

Hello 2013

Assalamualaikum uhuks uhuks. Hye u ollzz. Miaaaaaaa is hereyaahhh xD

My face is gorgeous like this muahhh hahaha

This is what happening to me everyday. Hahaha that's cute.

Actually, i am not one of 1D's fans. Like... "Okay, one direction ni saje nak tiru Korea kan. Poor you". What a narrow minded. Haha, i started to like them since.... I DON'T KNOW WHEN. But still, i am not one of the kipas-susah-mati. Their songs inspire me a lil bit. Ahh... Forget it.

So so so. 2013 will be approaching us in about 4 hours left?!

"Ya Allah, jadikanlah aku seorang hamba yang sentiasa mensyukuri segala nikmatmu, sering bertaqwa kepada mu Ya Allah dan seorang pelajar yang sentiasa mendamba ilmu ilmumu hanya niat kerana mu Ya Allah." 

When i think bout my dosa, i feel really really guilty. Terasa mcm ya allah, teruknya aku ni ya allah. Selalu lupa, leka and alpa semua. Insyaallah, harap2 2013 will promise me a better muslimah born-to-be. Amin~

So let the picture talk. Sometimes i feel like to run away from all of the problems. Twet twet, and i did even forget how to write spontaneously in a blog. Everything is so not me. Why Mira Why?! Harap2 pukul 12 ni i can change to a PRINCESS!!! Hahahah, no la. I want to be a new me. And teared out the old me as best as i can. Taraaaaaaaaaa. Hahaha, okay, mira sudah semakin GILA. Everybody, watch out. Till then, byeee.

P/s: Counting on for A NEW YEAR 2013 ^^V

Back then when Mira is known as Eqa. LOL

Suatu Permulaan

Assalamualaikum, hye and hai ~~~

Saya ----> Aku

Its been such a very, very, very long time since i've last updated this blog. For some reasons, i left out this blog without any sympathy. Err, tak perlu sympathy kot :P Guess what, aku dah habis SPM! It was such the most important thing in my life. So... Goodbye to Sekolah Menengah Sains Tun Syed Sheh Shahbudin, 14000, Bukit Mertajam, Pulau Pinang. I will come again on this March. Insyaallah.

My fingers are not smooth as before. Ideas wouldn't come in a nick of time. And even, blogging feels weird within me. Al maklumlah dah lama tak meluahkan segala curahan hati dalam blog ni.

New wish:

STAY ALIVE WAHAI BLOG 

Habis je SPM tu, aku dan rakan rakan 2D4 menjerit macam orang histeria tahap teruk tu.Sampai dorm terus packing up barang barang semua and get ready untuk balik rumah. Esoknya, the best moment ever, TUN SYED SHEH SHAHABUDIN A NIGHT TO REMEMBER. It's our Graduation Day. At last, i've graduated. Macam tak percaya je. We were wearing the graduation jubah yang tersangat besar and menampakkan like i was a giant moster that gonna eat the humans. That was the last time too for me to meet oppa. Here is some of the pictures:

Tengok budak budak makan n fyi aku sgt comot time tu

5 Bestarianss, iloveyou <3 look at our happy smiles

#1 four of us FANI, SHADEL, NANI, MIRA

#2 four of us again and we are a cam whore

I was too chubby forever and evaa

The beloved girls Nelisa, Maryam, Mira and Amnani

That was the short diary bout the graduation night. Missing friends mode: ON. For this post, i hope its gonna be such a good starter for my daylong after this. Okay, till then. xoxo

P/s: Seriously this is the questions? *perasaan jawab Biology paper two* .___________.

Assalamualaikum.